I finally got the stench of old fog off of me. It was heavy and it filled me with such an incredible burden that I couldn’t breath, I was speechless and immobile. I finally got it off me & it was hard.
Now something new has crept up. It’s making me numb, anxious, and angry. My friends are getting on my nerves & right now I want nothing to do with them. They don’t understand or try to understand. I’m tired of trying to explain to them & get shot down. I’m beginning to feel like there is no one that understands me. There has been a small shift, instead of wanting to just end my existence this earth, I want to just leave my life here & go somewhere else. How will that help though? It won’t. I need to look at things head on. Live my life, MY WAY. Right now it’s not where I want it, but it’s getting there. I have a lot of thinking to do. Alot of things to still change. It’s a work in progress, I’m willing to see it through.